Dad believed deeply in the dignity of honest work, in taking care of things others overlooked, and I believed him too. By the time I reached sophomore year, I had made a quiet promise to myself: one day I would make him so proud that the cruel whispers no longer mattered. Then everything changed. Last year, he was diagnosed with cancer. Even after the diagnosis, he kept going to work as long as the doctors would allow, often longer than they wanted him to, sometimes leaning against the supply closet, shoulders slumped, exhaustion etched in every movement. Yet, when he saw me, he would straighten up, grin, and say, “Don’t give me that look, honey. I’m fine.” We both knew he wasn’t. And still, amidst the struggle, he kept talking about the things that mattered most to him, about prom and graduation. “I just need to make it to your prom,” he said one night at the kitchen table, rubbing tired eyes. “And then graduation. I want to see you walk out that door dressed up like you own the world, princess.” I reassured him every time, “You’re going to see way more than that.” But a few months before prom, he lost the fight, passing away before I could even reach the hospital.
The day I found out, I was standing in the school hallway, my backpack still slung over my shoulder. I remember staring down at the linoleum floors—those very floors he had cleaned countless times—and then everything blurred. The week after the funeral, I moved into my aunt’s house, where the spare bedroom smelled of cedar and fabric softener, nothing like the little home Dad and I had shared. Prom season arrived, and everywhere I turned, girls compared designer dresses, sending screenshots of gowns that cost more than my dad had ever made in a month. I listened from the edges of conversations, feeling like a ghost in my own life. Prom had always been our moment—Dad standing by the door, pretending he knew how formal events worked, snapping far too many pictures, but always with that proud grin. Without him, the night felt hollow. It wasn’t until I opened the box of items returned from the hospital—his wallet, cracked watch, and neatly folded work shirts—that an idea struck me so clearly it felt inevitable: if he couldn’t be there with me, I would bring him with me.
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