I remember moving plates. I remember refilling glasses. I remember laughing at one of Will’s stories at exactly the right time, because mothers have been trained to perform normalcy even when something inside them screams.
Claire talked about her job. Will talked about work. They teased each other about whose car was dirtier. They held hands across my table like a promise.
And all I could see—could feel, could hear—was that necklace shifting slightly every time Claire moved.
It sat against her skin like a ghost I couldn’t exorcise.
At one point Claire touched it again while she spoke, and I watched her finger trace the pendant with the unconscious intimacy of someone who believed it belonged to her.
I nodded along, my body on autopilot, while my mind ran in frantic circles.
Did I… did I really put it in the coffin?
Yes. I did. I remembered the weight of it in my palm. The cold chain slipping through my fingers. The way my throat had tightened when I placed it near my mother’s heart, as if jewelry could anchor someone to peace.
I had been the one who placed it there.
I was the only person alive who knew about the hinge on the left side.
The world did not get to rewrite that.
After dessert—after the lemon pie that tasted like old Sundays and now tasted like betrayal—Will and Claire hugged me at the door. Will’s arms were warm, familiar. Claire smelled like clean soap and expensive perfume.
“Thank you,” Claire said. “This was perfect.”
“You’re welcome,” I said, and meant it about the food. Not about what was happening to me.
Will kissed my cheek. “Sunday dinner next week? We can talk wedding stuff.”
“Of course,” I said.
Their taillights disappeared down the street.
The second they were gone, I didn’t even finish clearing the table.
I went straight to the hallway closet where I kept the old photo albums on the top shelf. I pulled them down so fast one slipped and nearly hit my foot.
My hands shook as I carried them to the kitchen table, the same table where my son had just announced his future, the same table where my mother used to sit and cut apples for pie.
I flipped through the albums with fingers that felt too clumsy.
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